I have some big changes happening in my life right now and I am so nervous, excited, guilty feeling, sad, happy...
Well you get the idea, lots of emotions. I am starting a new job, which yes isn't that big of deal, but I am leaving working on the ranch. Working on MY FAMILIES ranch. My life long dream.
It is for the best I have to believe. I went to school for what I am going to be doing and I am going to be getting paid very good money and get benefits.
Yes money isn't everything, but I have to be able to pay bills too.
Plus is there really a need for me out at the ranch any more? That is a hard question and makes me think a lot.
I feel guilty and sad to be leaving my dad, he is getting older and it scares me the thought of losing him. I enjoyed getting to spend time with him, even if it was in the cold and dirt. I feel guilty of leaving my children in the summer time. Yes it will be with family, but it is not me.
I am nervous of starting a new job.
Any new job is nerve racking but this is a job I have never done before, I will be working full time, indoors and be away from my kids. Yes my children are older and in school, but I loved having that feeling that if they needed me, I could be there. Yes my new employer I am sure will let me off, but it won't be as easy. Plus in the summer time the kids spent the days with me on the ranch.
Nervous Breaking Point...
Well this I am a little bit worried about, I am starting a new job, my family is going deer hunting, I am hosting my in-laws for an early Thanksgiving, Christmas is coming. That isn't even including any of the Colby and Kalli's activities. I hope I can handle everything that is going on...
Happy and Excited
I am excited to have a job that pays me what I deserve. I am happy to be helping others in my job and that my schooling has paid off to get me to this. I am happy that my husband told me about the position and persuade me into applying. He is so proud of me for getting the job and that makes me happy.
I am SO Proud of my family. My husband, Colby, Kalli, my folks, siblings, nieces, nephews, in-laws...
The list goes on and on. I am so lucky to have an amazing family. People questioned me when I got married, but they just didn't see what I saw and I hope they do now. My family is the best and I am VERY LUCKY for everything I have.
I am proud of myself for having the courage to try something new and seeing the potential in myself. I strongly believe that if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will. I believe this is the best for me and my family, even though it is difficult.
So I am setting new goals in my life now. It is scary, but no one said Life was going to be Easy.
So if you see me running crazy down the streets or if you see not the normal me on this blog or facebook this is why!
Thanks for letting me speak what is on my mind and please wish me the best!